1980-05-11 T. M. and Ashram Behavior, Dollis Hill, London UK, …very guilty, becomes absolutely passive, docile, and just like a cabbage. Because when you are released from that thing, you go into sleep. And when you start getting into sleep and all that, then the subconscious takes over and then you become the other side. So simultaneously you become a sadist as well as a masochist. All right? So you go into two roles. Now, it’s very cunning. If he had put you on the one side only, you would have run away. So better kept just [lead/lean] you from one to another side. So you never get out of it. This is cunningness. While this fellow, he has taken you to the right side by which espionage, this, that, you do. Then you are caught up. But if you, supposing you go as a, say, somewhere to attack first as a king, then they recognize you. So then second time you go as a beggar. You see, you play all the time into double. This is his trick, all right? So, then he started these courses. First he made you supraconscious and he started your courses. Means you became ambitious, you see. Sahaja Yogi: Yes. Shri Mataji: By that you became ambitious. You wanted to fly. That was a flying sort. All right. So he said you can fly. Now, this idea can only appeal to people who are on the supraconscious. Otherwise, who would like to fly? See, Read More …