How To Know Where You Are

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How To Know Where You Are, Advice at Chelsham Rd Ashram, Clapham, London (UK), 7 September 1980.

…vibrations on the photographs, that’s very important. How to know where you are, as far as God is concerned. That’s the main thing, isn’t it? We are here for that: to be one with God, to be [in] union with His Power, to be his instruments. And how our connections get loose, and how we can to correct it, we should try to understand that.

First of all, we must realise that you are not to think about it. If you start thinking too much about it, then you have seen that you do something funny which you should not have done. Do not plan out too much about it, also, because, in this country, if people start planning out, they’ll get all the planning done. For example, they have to go for a walk: then they must have proper shoes, they must have proper sticks, they must have this, they must have that, and they must have gloves, and they must have everything, and they never go out! They are so exhausted with the planning itself. (laughter)

In the same way, it happens with Sahaja Yoga. It very much happens the same way with Sahaja Yoga, I have seen that though I have told you not to plan it out, not to think about it, still you go on doing it and that is how you get into problems; that by thinking you cannot correct yourself. What you can do is to know that you can put bandhans or you can give yourself a balance with your hands. You have to move your hands and not your brain. Alright? Our brains are moving and hands and feet never move! And out of proportion our brains are moving but our hands and feet do not move. This is the society which H.G. Wells had described, I can see it very clearly, that you have more brains than your deftness and than your understanding. Your fingers are not so sensitive and the brain leads you to artificiality. So, you are not to use your thinking for correcting your chakras. Now should I write it down in golden words? That, “You cannot think about it and sort it out.” This is one thing people do not understand.

Now we have got mantras for different chakras. Every chakra has got a mantra which you know. If you do not know, you should find out. Now, if one chakra is catching, then you work on that chakra only and develop your mantra on that. For example, supposing you have to say something for your heart: then, first of all, you must ask for forgiveness from God. That means your attention has not been so much as it should have been on the Spirit. Or, if you have done any mistakes, ask for forgiveness, you ask for forgiveness. Now, you ask for forgiveness from your heart. Even doing with hand can be artificial, you understand that? It could be just ritualistic – but from your heart. Whatever you have to say, you say it from your heart. Ask for forgiveness from your heart, not [to] think about it. You see, this is the trouble is. If I say something then you start thinking about it, and then you said then, “Now, I have to take out my attention from the centre,” and then you start taking out your attention. You cannot. With your brain, you cannot take out your attention from anywhere. It’s only through your hands, or movement of your hands, or by saying mantras you bring in. Do you understand that point? Absolutely clear-cut.

Many people think that if they pay attention to something and pull their attention – you cannot. But what you can do is to, when you are saying the mantra, put your attention, without thought, to that particular chakra. So you master that chakra ultimately, the one which is a weakness can become your mastery. But if you think, then you are catching again the heart much more. You have known that by thinking you catch your right side in the sense that it starts [getting] overactive, it gets over-activated, and left side gets frozen up, by which heart is catching. Your ego develops which engulfs your heart. So the more you think about it, how to correct your ego, the worse you are. You fight it.

So then we know that you have to give a balance, bring down your ego – with your hand, with massaging, you can bring it down, because in your hand it is flowing, whether you are catching or not catching, it is flowing from your hand is there – the flow from your hand is there. You may not even receive from Me but there is flow already started, it’s germinated, little bit is always there. Use that to massage your head, bring down your ego.

Then for heart also, do not think about it but give it, or you put your hand towards it. Direct the vibrations but don’t think at that time. This is the important thing. If you are thinking and directing, it cannot be directed because your attention is engulfed in the thinking process. Do you understand that point? And here, the problem is people think too much and talk too much. I mean, they talk about everything. They know everything. It is such a wasteful habit of thinking and then talking about it. Everybody is a monarch here because of ego. So now please tell your ego, “You please keep shut – now we know you too well!” Try to push it back as much as you can, with force sometimes, bring it back, like that. Try to bring it to its normal position and you will be amazed once it goes to its normal position you’ll feel very much lighter. So this is to be done with your hand.

You can use oil to rub on your body, if you have to rub, you can use even powder or anything for having less friction, but it is through massage, through giving bandhans, by taking it out, or through limbu (hindi: lime/lemon) or you can use even an orange or something like that, Try to take out these vibrations through these mediums and not through thinking. Through thinking, you cannot do it. Once you think about it, you have no power over yourself. There’s a barrier between the Spirit and you, because you are thinking through your ego.

You must have noticed many a times, when I tell you that, “This you should not have done!” You said “I know.” You see, this is something I can’t understand, when you know that this should not have been done, then why are you doing it? (laughing) Now which is that ‘I’ which knows? Is your Spirit. Or which is that is doing it against it? Is your ego. So, identification should be with Spirit, and Spirit does not think – it manifests.

So you cannot sort it out through your thinking. It’s all false and faulty life. Anything you do with thinking, it will be all faulty. Now why you people in this country have lost your deftness in the hands? For the same reason. If I ask a question, say, on, say, some art, people can tell me a lot about art, but if you tell them even to hold a brush in their hands, they cannot! In any art, any deftness or anything, they think. That’s how the creativity, the spontaneity, is finished: by thinking.

And that’s why you must have seen, the people these days who producing art, is also so horrible, that within twenty years all these artistic pieces will die out. They will have no value. All these are produced in these,  I see them everyday in so-called “modern art” and all that. The real modern art can only be done by a person who has got his Spirit manifesting, like Blake. The one whose Spirit is not manifesting, whether he’s a poet or whether he is an artist or anything, whatever he is doing is going to finish in no time, has no value, because it cannot give happiness to Spirit. It can only give happiness outside.

So do everything in silence – not thinking – in thoughtless awareness. That’s the main point. How much you pamper your ego, you just see morning till evening. It’s very simple to see in life. We try to be angry and in temper, or sometimes try to be very, very gentle, and sometimes very, very humble to look at, just to please that ego of ours – not to ourselves, the Spirit.

Now just fighting your ego, you are not going to achieve much, as I have told you. Just do not accept its existence. It doesn’t exist for you any longer, does not exist. Ego is only existent in God because He does something, you do not do. That’s why it’s a myth. Your ego is a myth, you have no ego. It’s a myth and you are carrying on with the myth. Now ego in a man is nonsense. Ego in God is all sense.

Now when you are facing the photograph, just to check up yourself, humble down yourself. First of all, humble down like a person who wants to perfect oneself. Before the photograph, you humble down yourself and try to find out what’s wrong with you. Best thing is to give yourself a bandhan. Don’t think again. “Humble down” means try to bring down your attention to your heart. Humble down. Bring it down to your heart. Don’t think.

Now you put attention to the photograph without thinking and see for yourself what chakras are catching. One should not immediately jump into conclusion, “Oh yes, I am catching for this, I am catching for that, I am catching for another person,” and all this nonsense is not needed. You need not take it to a rationality to judge it why you are catching, that’s not important for us. It is catching, alright. So do not go on a trip of thinking. I can ask, you need not.

If you are checking other people, then it’s alright because you can tell them what is to be done. But then you find something – now left is catching. So, now you know that this is because of your guilt, whichever is built in your subconscious you are catching on the left. It could be due to anything because you didn’t have proper sense of morality. That’s the basics. Left Vishuddhi is immoral. If you have been immoral you get this. Basics. Then, sisters relationship. Then, guilt that is built in the subconscious. If you become immoral, in the subconscious the guilt is built. Any such guilt can come as any other guilt. Like you see, the real guilt is due to something else, but people express it as something else. Alright?

So, do not worry as to what guilt you have got. I never tell you what guilt you have got, if you remember it correctly. Never I tell you that you should say that you have got this guilt. Many people tell me that, “I have got a guilt that there is war in Vietnam,” or some sort of a nonsense, or “My forefathers went to Argentina and killed many Indians.” All this is nonsense, you see? The guilt is a subconscious action, is what you call the conditioning in the left. When there is some sort of an immoral behaviour that is done. Even you may not be knowing what is morality, you see, if you do not know dharmas, might be something you are doing which you should not have done. So forget about it, detach yourself. The one who has committed mistake is your ego, not you.

You are pure because you are Spirit.

So don’t condemn yourself for that. You are not to bother. For example, if there is defect in the instrument, there is no defect in the electricity. Electricity is pure. It is not carried out because there is defect in the instrument. So we have to correct the instrument. Now, if you think you are the electricity you can correct it, but if you think you are the instrument, you can never correct it because again you go to your subconscious, try to find out, “Oh, what things I must have done?” It could be from your previous lives, also. It could be you might have caught it by saying something very filthy which you do not remember.

So do not tax your mind. We are not psychoanalysts, at all, to find out psychologically what is wrong with us by asking questions and this, then troubling yourself too much with ego. Psychologists only think of the left [side] but they don’t know when you try to do that you develop your ego. When you start thinking about it, from where this has come, immediately you develop the ego of a person and the person goes on to the ego trip and which is even more dangerous than subconscious problem. Because people who have ego trouble the whole community, while those who are superego only trouble themselves. People with ego are much more dangerous and troublesome than the people with superego.

So you just, first of all, see what is the matter with you. Now, Left Vishuddhi is catching. Alright, so that means the Kundalini is not properly going through the Left Vishuddhi. Alright? Then you be attached to your Spirit. Try to attach yourself to your Spirit. Then you clear it out. I see like that. Supposing I am the Spirit and you are the body. I see my Spirit and I see your Spirit. I am not bothered what you have got. In the same way, you see yourself in two ways: that you are the Spirit, and you are not the body or the mind or anything. So we have to clear it. They are paroksha, they are different, they are another. We have to correct it. As electricity is separated from this instrument (microphone), in the same way you are separated from your Spirit, but this separateness must be understood in meditation, that’s why meditation is necessary.

For meditating, you should say that, “Mother, make me the Spirit. I am the Spirit. Mother, I am the Spirit.”  You start seeing through the eyes of the Spirit everything, then you do not feel bad. You laugh at yourself, make fun of yourself, and then you enjoy yourself, only with yourself. You play with yourself. You joke with yourself. And the whole thing becomes a joke.

But for this, when you meditate, you find out first of all what is the matter with you. But not mentally you resolve it, through your vibrations and mantras. Mantras are very important for Sahaja Yogis. If these mantras could be said, loudly is better in the beginning. That is why, in privacy, you can do all these things, in your room you can work it out. Now you can use lemons, you can use water, you can use light, you can use ether, aakash, you can use sea – all these things you can use to cleanse yourself.

Once you start facing yourself through your Spirit, you won’t be so frightened. Because you do not want to face yourself, you are all the time in that mood of frightened, fear. But once you start facing [yourself], you will be amazed that, really, you are beautiful, and all these things will drop out. So there is no need to condemn yourself in any way, or to elate yourself, but just be your Spirit.

The best way to be with your Spirit is to forgive, forgive, because then your thoughts will go away. I mean, here there are people with superego, but as soon as you remove their superego, they get into ego very fast, I’ve seen it. I mean, they are really basically egos, actually, as if, from the horse they have fallen for a while and as soon as you take them away, then lift them, they just jump onto the horse again, it’s like that. So one has to be very careful about this point. Now when you meditate, how much time, again, you are thinking? All this meticulousness, if you try, then again you are thinking. You just take the proper place to sit down, keep the photograph before you and just feel your vibrations – where are you catching?

Alright. Then you know how to remove your catches. Without thinking, try to do that. Then say the mantras on different chakras, wherever you are catching, first of all. First of all ascertain them (which are catching), need not say all the mantras. Only say the mantras in that part, with your heart. Remove your baddhas with your hand and movement, as you know that, and it would work out.

(baby starts crying)

You can take her out now because it’s very congested now for children, she’ll be better off. Too much for her to face.

The less you think, the faster you move with your realisation. This is the blessings of Indians. That’s why you can ask Ray what he has to say about Sahaja Yoga. They don’t think much. Now see my cook whom I wanted to teach cooking. In one month he learned: how to cook very well. But I can tell you I cannot teach you people for six months. Even I don’t know if I can teach you that much even in one year. Because very few things will go into the brain, and then come to the hand is also difficult. You discuss anything, say, planning of the room, everybody will be arguing without thinking that, “Just receive the thing, let’s see what it is,” everybody will start arguing. In the same way, if you have to learn how to be a Spirit, do not argue it out. Do not think about it. Just try to become, to become, you have to become.

Now I have understood, [what] your basic problem is: that everything you want to sort out with your brain and don’t want to use your hands, and that’s why the inertia is setting in.

People are becoming lethargic, you see. Unless and until you move physically, how the inertia is going to go out? Not through your brain. So reduce your thinking. Do not try to sort out things through your thinking. It will give you a serenity, a kind of a peaceful existence. While talking to each other better to whisper, talk slowly. In my presence, you shouldn’t shout and talk loudly [but] in a very whispering way, it’s a silence in which you are here. Normally, people talk as if, say, I am just a housewife or something. One should understand that’s not the way to talk, because then you are missing the point, you see? You are playing with My Maya, which you should not come into. Try to [do that with] each other also. Because you are saints. Do not quarrel and argue. Reduce your arguments to minimum and minimum.

Moreover, find out all the ways by which your mind goes out and stop it. Try to stop that, because now your mind has thought for at least seven lives ahead. You don’t need any more thinking, you have done enough. Whatever brain God has given you, you have so much bashed it, that now better leave it alone and don’t think. Then the inspiration will come to you from within. And when the inspiration will be coming, then you will find it will be very different; it will be very beautiful, absolutely beautiful it will be.

I think if you read Zen – I am not saying go and read [because] immediately you will buy ten books and start reading!! For heaven’s sake, don’t! I am just telling you that if you read Zen, you won’t understand, normally. People won’t understand. They’ll just describe like a little flower standing, lonely, alone in the woodlands. They go see and enjoy it, and see that identification of loneliness that: God is alone, He has no companion, He cannot share. But you cannot. You will think about it, put words on it and make something nonsense out of it. But they’ll enjoy, just enjoy. They’ll make a pattern out of some stones and some sand, and I have seen all Americans and all other people who go there, they say, “What is this? What is this? What is this?” It is a pattern to neutralise your thoughts, that you go into thoughtless awareness, you just see the pattern without thinking. You try to see, at least, my face, without thinking which my face, itself, makes you thoughtless. If you watch my face, it makes you thoughtless.

So, you watch my face without thinking. On the photograph you can watch my face without thinking and it will work out. Try to make yourself thoughtless. That’s the first stage you have not achieved, and you jump onto that. For no rhyme and reason, you jump onto that thought business. This is the only quality difference between you and Indians. They do not think about it, they just imbibe. Have you seen a child being nursed? It doesn’t think, it’s just sucking and enjoying. What they say is to take attention inside, but if you tell anybody here they will say, “We are pulling our inside attention!” With your brain you will be trying all tricks and doing nothing. Is to silence yourself, silence your mind, and a serene atmosphere is there which you feel around, which I feel very much in India. Here, also, sometimes it sets in within you, during puja time and all that. At the puja time, now it’s much better [but] before they used to quarrel, early in the morning, before puja a big quarrel is on, and then the puja would start and I wouldn’t know what to do with that kind of a puja!

And, the main thing is that we have to be one with our Selves. Without knowing the Atma, you cannot know God. You have to know your Spirit. Once that beautiful personality is developed within you, people will know that you are Spirit.

If you think less, every work you will do will be good. I have seen, you ask somebody to connect one, say, pipe to another pipe, they cannot. There will be leakage, there will be some problem, because you are not connecting it without thinking. You see Douglas has that, now, capacity: he doesn’t think. You have seen how much he has improved. He doesn’t think much, he just does, and that’s why he’s come up in Sahaja Yoga. Though he had gone down very much, he knows that very well. But how, by not thinking, he has come up!

You people are over-developed so try to stop your brain acting any more and just make it humbler. All these, you see, ideas of hippyism and all that, is actually the consciousness, awareness, of this overdeveloped mind. But just by wearing dresses, or living like hippies, or by taking drugs, you cannot stop this brain thinking. Sahaja Yoga is the only way, and balancing yourself.

Also, there are many other things which help you. For example, physical things – you must learn dieting. What diet is needed for that, what exercise is needed for what kind of a thing. Get to it!

Now I am going away for a month, you have to work it out. Actually, unless and until you impress others whom you are addressing or whom you are going to meet with that kind of love and that kind of serenity, nobody is going to believe! Secondly, what impresses people the most? Do you know that? What does it impress, even if it is false, impresses people very much? Simplicity. Simplicity of character, of talking of dressing up, simplicity. Even, say, if you are a dandily dressed person, people know you are dandily dressed. Even if you are say wearing a jean and making a thing as if you do not care for a suit and all that, still you are trying to impose something. But if you just wear a normal, simple dress, you dress up in a simple way, absolutely in a normal way, people are amazed at you: how can you be that normal, simple?

And the second thing that impresses people is what you have sacrificed for Sahaja Yoga or for anything that you are doing. How much you are dedicated yourself. Not what you have achieved out of it, but what you have sacrificed. That’s very important. This second point is very important: what you have sacrificed.

You see, if you read what Indians write or even you people write and all that is there that: Mother has all the comfort of Her own, She has a family of Her own, She has Her grandchildren, but She’s still, She’s so much interested in us. She comes here and She doesn’t mind anything, and She sacrifices all Her time all Her enjoyment for us. She enjoys our company, She wants to be with us. I have many ways by which people get impressed, but you people: try to sacrifice something out of you.

While, you have noticed that some of you have been really parasitic. This is another thing which people will be shocked [about]! The gurus also, obviously, they do not show. In the beginning they will show that they are very sacrificing, they have sacrificed their families, they are wearing a kashaya vastra (monks clothes), they have become a sadhu and they have given up everything. All these Llamas have impressed people with that! Of course that’s falsehood, we are not going to take to falsehood. But in our life, if we are sacrificing, doing things for others, every time if you weigh how much they have done…so for example, if I start weighing, “How much the English people have worked out Sahaja Yoga compared to others?” And then I start paying you according to what you have done, giving you that much time as it should be given to you, immediately my work will not give me satisfaction. I can’t, I’m too sincere, I’m too genuine, I just cannot get out of my genuineness or sincerity, I just cannot. You people have that much freedom, I don’t have any of these [freedoms], this is my nature, I just can’t help it. Whether you come up or not, till the last breath of My life I’ll work hard on you, but to make it easier for Me and enjoyable for you, you must try to work in a way where there’s no thinking. You cannot understand me through thinking can you? How far can you go with thinking? Only you’ll go mad! So just don’t think about it. Develop serenity within you. And no superiority complex is needed. You have got realisation, others will also get it. Maybe others may be better than you are today.

You will see that dignity and serenity coming in to you once you realise that you are the Spirit. Realisation never means that, from your brain. You see, with my brain if I ‘realise’ that I’m the queen of England, I cannot become! I have to realise within me, means it must actualise within me that I am the queen. It’s an actualisation, it’s not just thinking, just believing into something. It is the nature, the very nature, it should become because actually you are the Spirit, your nature is the Spirit. You are nothing but the Spirit.

The time has come for all the manifestation of the Spirit, and all these superficial and silly, stupid things that you are doing through your brain: drop it out! Do not waste your energy. There isn’t much time left.

And with this I would like to bless you all that you develop that serenity within you and that affection and honour and respect for yourself, and become that. The way I honour you honour yourself and love yourself and understand yourself.

May God bless you all.

In India they’ll say, ‘Suck in the vibrations’. Now you will say, “Well, how to suck?” Just become thoughtless, it will go in! Just become thoughtless it will go in. Just try to be thoughtless, you’ll imbibe it. If the thoughts are coming from ego, just tell them, “Be humble, be humble, be humble, ” and they’ll disappear. Because your brain cannot suggest anything to you, sensible. Only your Spirit can manifest. Just tell your mind, “Be humble.” The this relativity will go away that you have to be unique, you are some higher soul and something. All that is nonsense. You have to be the Whole, you have to be in the centre.

You see, what happens is that you are in a centre, moving in this direction, alright? Like that. In the centre. And once you try to go to anything extraordinary you go like a tangent outside. You see, you keep to the centrifugal force or I can say the centripetal force. There’s also a centrifugal force acting. Now when you try to go out, anywhere, try to do something exceptional or better and all that, and try to show off or in anyway you try to come out from the whole, you just go like a tangent: and in such a big way that you are amazed how you are left out! And such people then go out of circulation.

Better now. Don’t think!

But some people do not even soak there feet in the water, do not even meditate. I mean, I don’t know how they are Sahaja Yogis, I just can’t understand. Every day you must soak your feet in the water! Every morning you must beat yourself with shoes. This is a ritual of Sahaja Yoga. But if you do not do it you should not also be killing yourself for that but if you have a chance do it, because that’s how you cleanse. That’s a part. Not by thinking that I’ve done soaking of my feet! I was amazed that some people just do not soak their feet even do not meditate at all, don’t do anything. And they are supposed to be Sahaja Yogis. You see, Sahaja Yogis are to be decided by the Divine, not by if you become ‘members’ of Sahaja Yoga [that] you become Sahaja Yogis. It is to be decided by Divine.

People think that, whatever we do, we are Sahaja Yogis. You do not become Sahaja Yogis at all, those who do not meditate. This is our way of life. You see, as in Islamic rules there are that there are Shariat is. Shariat means the style of life. This is our way of life, is to keep ourselves cleansed, how we cleanse ourself, this is bathing ourselves, our, all those things that are filthy within us to take them out and do it. That’s the main thing. Then you’ll be amazed that you won’t be wasting your energy in, say, doing your work. You’ll be doing your work much better because you are wasting all your energy through your brains.

Then I don’t have to give explanations, once you become the Spirit. You just enjoy. Alright? It’s good now, it’s working out let it settle down, let your attention be on the Spirit.

hmm. Just watch. Agya is too much. Can you take from My Agya, right. Thinking you see, is the main point is: too much! Will you go into a ? or something. Better thing would be.

Gone up to here. It’s stuck here!

You see, your thinking is reducing now. Try to watch your thoughts. Hold each other’s hands and one hand should be outside. Should be left loose one hand. And what you can do is to hold her hand, one hand, and one hand…Good. Better, thinking is going down.

Agya is so sticky.

You can’t open the door here is it? Yes, you try to open. What sort of arrangements they have made here? This is all thinking process! Open the door, it’s quite warm today, very warm, open it!

What has happened to Cooly, why is he getting into such a big ego?

Sahaja Yogi: He could have come earlier but he’s trying to…

Shri Mataji: I know, he’s trying to avoid me now. You see, this is the problem. He has ego and you have ego too. You were having a fight? You don’t join hands with him, he’ll be alright. He has been neglecting his work. If you are not properly working, why will people accept you? You must show more sincerity about work and involvement into it. If you do not think you will do it better. Cooly never used to do that. Now suddenly, I don’t know what has happened to him. He has started thinking too much. Don has really not done good to him. Don, please try to now be kind to him and bring him round ,alright? He’s a very old Sahaja Yogi and he should not be just gone out of the circulation.

If you don’t work…you see, if you are a good worker then anybody would think, nobody would allow you to get out. On the contrary they’ll say, “Please work for us” But if you are a bad worker they’ll find ways and methods of throwing you out. Same in Sahaja Yoga. If you are genuine, you are simple. God knows [that] you are alright, you’ll be there. If not He’ll thrown you out. He knows everything. You’ll go out. You’ll be amazed how you’ll be thrown out.

You are not to fight with each other. And try to understand that unless and until you work with complete devotion [and] dedication nobody’s going to accept you for any work whatsoever. All those people who have come up, even in work field, have been doing things properly. If you try to pull him out John, you are his friend.

Try to help each other by telling, “Don’t lose temper, don’t get angry, everything will be alright. Take it easy.” On the contrary if one person says [to] another one things, another one says at a louder voice.

You all have not yet know your self-esteem, that’s the main point is. You see, because, if you are born say in a royal family, you would have had some sort of a self-esteem which was artificial. Now you are not born in that kind of family, you are normal people ordinary families. So what? You can be born anywhere. Christ was born in a manger. So what? He never lost his self-esteem. How can Sahaja Yogis fight for like this? I didn’t like it, tell Cooly, and be sober down and be humble. Don’t take the laws of God into your hands. Do not fight. Alright?

Where is Peter? Where is he gone?  All ego. Where is he, Peter?

Sahaja yogi: He’s gone upstairs Mother for something or other.

Shri Mataji: Just call him. Get him here. Very egoistical fellow. He’ll get out of the circulation very soon. At the time when people are meditating what is he doing upstairs? And he wants to be the leader of the people!

Peter Pierce: Yes Mother?

Shri Mataji: Sit down, and hold the hands of people! And you must soak your feet every day, and when you are meditating….you better sit here. And all those who have to be Sahaja Yogis and have to live in this ashram have to soak there feet every night, and have to meditate! Because your egos pass from each other. It’s contamination, complete contamination. Try to humble down. Now take it. Let it pass out. Such a lot of ego you can’t imagine. See. See that? ‘Huk, huk, huk, huk’ it’s going on!

You just say that, “Mother, you are our ego. You are the ego.” I am, you are not. You don’t do anything. That will solve the problem. “We don’t do anything, you do everything,” You say like that otherwise it will not.  Be humble. And that’s why there are no emotions, nothing. Just talk, talk, talk, talk, talk!!! No feelings, nothing comes up.

Be humble! Be humble in your heart.

Ah, it’s stuck up all here. See? Somebody come in I don’t know. It’s all hot. See? See that? Sickening, absolutely. And that’s how you catch then Ekadasha Rudra. You know, when ego develops too much you become Ekadasha Rudra problem and that’s the thing which sets in the real place for cancer.

Now don’t worry and think that…when I said ‘cancer’ everybody starts thinking, “Have I got?” None of you can have! You see, I know what you think all the time: real foolish things, nothing sensible! If you get cancer, do you think I’ll rest in peace?

Hmm, see? See how much ego and useless activity and the smoke of this horrible ego in the brain. Such a lot, still sticking on.

See your liver is nourished.

What you have to surrender is your ego, means your thinking. If you are thinking open your eyes and say “I forgive, I forgive”. You see, to neutralise your thoughts, use mantras. “Oh Mother, I forgive” even if you take My name is sufficient, it can take out your…Taking My name is very good, helps you a lot. Hmmm, taking My name is the best way of killing your ego I think! Aha, I can see now! You see? In the subtle way everybody thinks that, “Mataji is also like us, so why take Her name?”

Take My name, you finish your ego very nicely on that I tell you.  I am not [like you], I am very different, absolutely a different person. I’m telling you again and again: don’t be illusioned by Me. You see? I am really an illusion, complete illusion for you, you cannot understand Me. Just take My name and it will work out. Better? Still sticking on here! Now it’s better, isn’t it. Aah, better? All the heat going out. It’s better. Eyesights will improve.

Now on the left, it’s coming more on the left. Hmm God bless you.

Just one thing you [should] do: to see that you don’t think.

Is it very cold outside?

Yogi: Yes Mother

Shri Mataji: Are you sure? Phillip, when is Bala going to Singapore?

Phillip: I’m not sure Mother.

Shri Mataji: You find out. Alright? Tell him to give Me a phone before I leave because I have to give him addresses of people whom he has to meet in Singapore.

Phillip: Yes

Shri Mataji: Because I’ll go away on Thursday. Tell him to come and see Me before that.

Phillip: Before this Thursday?

Shri Mataji: Hmmm

Phillip: Yes Mother

Shri Mataji: Means must be Wednesday or something if he can come. Haa. See? It’s clearing out. Better?

Do not condemn yourself you see, there should be cheerfulness that it’s clearing out….

H.H. Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi